It is not a pleasant feeling to know that, regardless of the result of the Syrian situation, it probably won't have a substantial effect on my life.

Why should so many of Assad's victims have died when I live?  Why should those who haven't died be living in conditions that are so much worse than my living conditions?

I hate my life and wish that I were never born.  I don't want to live with what has happened to me for the rest of my life; if I live, I have no choice about that, but I do have the choice of whether or not to live, and I'm not a refugee.

Why do I have those options while so many others don't?  I'm not superior to those people.  I don't have a right to live that they don't have.  

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