At the Social Security office this week

"Since I keep being fired for supposedly being crazy, is there anyone who can advocate for me so that stops happening?"

"Not here."

"Oh.  That's terribly helpful of you."

"Did you say 'That's terrible'?"

"No, I said 'That's very helpful.'"

"You can try the state."  

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My last blog, "Woods-Mullen Shelter Is A Crime Against Humanity," which was suddenly incapacitated from publishing pictures from my phone when I was writing about the promotion of child molestation by Pennsylvania State University, and at which I subsequently had to stop writing, has several pages about my futile attempts to obtain employment through the Massachusetts Rehabilitation Commission during the fall of 2016.  For those who weren't preoccupied with watching me in my bathroom by hacking the cameras that recorded sound and, apparently, could also record video in the dark so my turning off the lights did not increase my privacy (which the conglomerate also thought was funny), you'll remember that the agency to which Mass Rehab referred me for work assessments wrote a report of several pages about my ability to work.  Although both of the people who supervised my work assessments said that I did a good job, and even the written report by their supervisor couldn't deny my competence at the tasks which I was asked to finish and described me as being friendly, the report said, in bold print, that the only work of which I was capable was part-time work "in a dish-room," with personal supervision by someone from her agency to intervene and take me to the doctor to be additionally medicated if I objected to being coughed at.  Although I then had almost a 4.0 from my first semester at Bunker Hill Community College, and I sent her proof of my grades, the report also said that my goal of working in biotechnology or of being a lawyer were "unrealistic."  

Her decision about my work prospects, which also led to lies from Mass Rehab that Mass Rehab never told me that it had relationships with employers that almost guarantee employment, and which also led to my being denied all assistance from Mass Rehab for obtaining employment, was based on Internet search results for my name, about which I told everyone at both agencies because Internet reputation was discussed by Mass Rehab as being important to employers.  

I had also perhaps naively confided in that supervisor about being harassed at school during the Spring semester of 2016.  Perhaps I also shouldn't have called that supervisor after the second work assessment and said "I don't think that working in a dish room is the right work for me at this time (since, in my early 40s, 2 decades after first being hospitalized,  I have had all the years of that sort of work that I need, thank you.)"

Perhaps it was also a naive mistake to be so convinced that my Internet search results would prevent me from being employed without advocacy that I confided in a school administrator about having sought employment through Mass  Rehab (thereby confirming to the school that I have had a psychiatric diagnosis).  I asked the school administrator to tell Mass Rehab that, after months of my insisting that I was innocent of lying about being harassed in a Spring 2016 class, it was proven by an independent evaluation that I'd been failed for the class for no reason by a professor who was complicit with the harasser and his friends, and my final grade was restored to the A that I should have had.  She said that she would ask if she could tell Mass Rehab that; the answer was that she couldn't.  Unfortunately, my having asked the school for help OBTAINING EMPLOYMENT through Mass Rehab gave that administrator's colleagues and supervisors the ammunition they needed to interrogate me about medication when I reported being harassed in a class for the third semester in a row of my attendance at the school.  When I said that my mental health wasn't the issue, I was told "What do you mean, that's not the issue," and I said "I mean that it's none of your business," and that was the end of my college career for the foreseeable future.  

I had also confided in the school about being homeless again in 2017 because of the people who put the hidden, illegal cameras in my last apartment lying and saying that there weren't cameras in the apartment and that I was delusional and that they were scared of me because I was crazy.  Apparently, telling the school about that was also a mistake, since the school used my being homeless again as evidence that I was lying about being harassed for the third semester in a row.

Although the few months of work (from 3 consecutive and ill-fated jobs that I've been able to get without advocacy since October 2017) meant that I could pay off the $700 bill that the school charged me for being suspended, the 4 final grades of F which the school administration forced onto my transcript by suspending me from school in the middle of classes have eviscerated my ability to transfer to another school.  My suspension letter specifies that, although I am banned from the campus for a year from the summer of 2017, until August 2018, I can re-apply to Bunker Hill Community College in 2018.  If I am also willing to formulate a written plan with the school about how to prevent my allegedly intimidating and dishonest behavior from disrupting classes, I might be readmitted as a student, although I will have to remain on academic probation until I graduate.  

The school made all of these decisions before MeToo.  I don't know whether or not the school's offer for me to perhaps be readmitted as a student and to spend the rest of my time there under suspicion and vulnerable to anyone who wants to harass me stands.